Sure hate to break down here
Nothing up ahead or in the rear view mirror
Out in the middle of know where knowin
We have all had these intense “Jesus take the wheel” moments in life. I had the unfortunate opportunity to view someone elses’s “what the hell am I going to do know” moment and it broke my heart.
On Sunday, while on my way to Kroger for gas, I heard loud, dramatic screeching sounds near me. After pulling into the station, the suv behind me slowly drug into the stall across from me. As I was pumping my gas, the woman inside the suv made a phone call. One of her windows was busted and covered in plastic. She stated in the call that her brakes had stopped working, and that was the screeching sound the I heard. Also, she was completely broke, and didn’t have gas. So many people passed by and heard the same conversation that I heard, including some people who clearly just left church. I pulled over to the bank and withdrew some money. When I pulled up to her, I could hear her sobbing in her car. I gave her the money and went on my way.
This song reminded me of what was happening to her, and what happens in life when life gets rough.
Here I stood, uncertain and unhappy about my job, depressed about where I am in life, and disgusted with my progress in all aspects of my life. Yet, here I stood, able to get my car washed, able to get my car serviced, and able to purchase not only what I need but splurge on some of my wants. I have failed in my Christian journey. I haven’t been to church in forever. I still wanted to be the saving grace for her that God has been to be so many times. God has used people to get me through so many situations and I couldn’t walk away from her without letting her know that people care. Let people know that you give a shit about them. Let your family know. Let your friends know. Shoot, tell strangers. You never know where someone is in life or what someone is enduring. You don’t see the battles that others fight. I’m still uncertain about my future. I’m still worried that I won’t be able to pay my car note, or that I’ll never be able to afford to live on my own. I’m still sad because I am unfulfilled and using my God given talents. Still, I am not worried about food, or gas at the moment.
Don’t let social media fool you. People everywhere are stunting to keep up their image. I will be real about my shortcomings. You don’t know what’s going on. We talk about people after they are dead, after they commit suicide. What can we do to help while people are living? People die not knowing that people care about them.
I walk through life not thinking that the people around me genuinely give a crap about my well being.
I hope to be the change that I want to see. It’s easy to be kind. Sometimes, a listening ear can save a life. Let’s be real. Life can be harsh at times. It can be rough and depressing. Uplift someone. Let’s stop shading so much and help.
Compassion and humanity shouldn’t be fashion trends, they do not go out of style . Someone has a bigger battle to fight that yours, remember that.
Nora Zaneta 